Ta-da!

A wonderful come back of mine. Well, I'm doing real fine, the depression has gone as I'm no longer working in that depressing office. One week I'm unemployed, and my wallet is running out of cash. (there's not much left in the bank account, as usual) Do not ask me I spent them on what, because neither do I got the idea where and when the heck I'd used the money. tsk, tsk. yeah, I'm a poor money saver. Alright. I always say I'm working on my plan yet I never really take any action for it. This time, I had actually made a move by renewed my passport, and translated my birth certificate. Yes, stick to the old plan, I'm still going to France. Relying on my family's financial situation right now, I will only worsen the crisis if I enrol for private college now so why not take the advantage of my father for having friends at overseas and work for them to earn myself some pocket money and support my family a little? Okay, when I say taking advantage of somebody else, it doesn't mean in a negative way. I'll do whatever I can just to entertain people around me, but definitely not in crimes or anything bad. (different story if it brings more and irresistable fortunes) Yeah, I was just kidding, lol. Right, I'm quite sure that all of the relatives got the news out from nowhere and spreaded out faster than I had expected. But until now, as long as the flight ticket hasn't be confirmed, I can't guarantee anything. What I can say now is, like I always said, I will try my best, I will try my best, again, and again. People got no faith in me, my parents, my relatives, my friends, and even myself couldn't assure that I'll be having what kind of life when I'm there since I'm always this joker kind of guy and never take anything seriously. But who knows? The only thing I can assure is, I can finally get out of this crappy life of mine here; no more family arguments, no more annoying sister, no more eyesore peers, and no more lousy BN. If you ask me is there anything that can make me stay, I'll say NO, NO, NO, and I'd like a window seat, please. XOXO.

20.

if for numerous time things went wrongly, you will eventually realize that you are the source where the problems came from. and for countless time I had cheated myself, telling that everything is gonna be in the way at the end, and keep on living in my dream. cousins' talks on Monday was like a big hit on my head, and it wakes me out of the hell.
yes, cousins' help sure is much better than any of the elder in the family. they do know what's in my mind, not much, but at least they can guess what's inside my head as they are just elder by me few years.


I'm 20 this year. there's still a long way for me to go in order to get what I wanted. as YingFei said, don't live in denial anymore.
I know I've wasting too much of time waiting for an answer that would take me so long. thus, waste no time, I need to confirm everything and work for my future. further my studies will be my first priority. and I know this will cause another commotion in the family. but I'll do well. 


lastly, here's a song for my summer. sharing is caring.

XOXO.

I wish I can be.

many asked why would I like to be a chef in the future, well I can't tell, really.
I'm indeed quite fond of cooking and I developed enough amount(?) of passion in cooking when I was still a kid, I suppose? yeah, I've been watching Jamie Oliver cook years ago and he inspired me a lot I tell you guys. for sure, I love cooking, but I hate to wash the utensils and buy ingredients by my own money. and my mom wouldn't allow me to cook no matter what. fearing I would cut myself and burn the whole kitchen. sigh...


anyways, let's hope that I'll be famous one day and I'll be able to cook without washing all the utensils I used and buy all the ingredients by myself, then, I'll cook for YOU!


XOXO